The one with biting the bullet

Happy holidays, everyone!

I remember one particular instance when I was about to graduate from college; my mother and I were seated for a heart to heart, and she was asking me of my direction. It was clear-cut in her perspective: she wanted me to pursue a career in law, and I wanted to change the world by becoming a teacher. Eventually, I followed my heart and broke hers, as far as I know.

Since that fateful decision more than six years ago, I have since become a teacher, a radio DJ, a voice talent, a musician/keyboardist, a multilevel marketer (ew!), a marketing communications specialist, a proposal planner, and most recently, a Christian teen magazine publisher. Both my wife and my mother are adamant: decide on doing one thing and do your best at it!

I know they're right, but I can't bring myself to sit down and get at it. Perhaps it's also for that reason that I have achieved only moderate success at these endeavors, because I'm too busy doing other things to settle down into this one particular role. Mind over heart, I'd win this thing hands down, but my heart really wants to play jack-of-all-trades, and unfortunately for me, my wife and son are in it for the long haul, and I can't drag them with me down the long road to bankruptcy.

So I'll continue to work at perfecting LIVEtheLIFE because this is where I've invested the most blood, sweat, toil, and tears, and because I know in my heart that God won't abandon my family while we work on a project that will bring more teens to a better understanding of Him and what a relationship with Him can do to a person's life. At the same time, however, since I still have to bring some food to the table and milk into my son's stomach, I will attempt to do two things on the side: 1) rejoin my old group, Release, to play keyboards for them and earn some much-needed cash, and 2) scratch the surface for some kind of career in the recording arts. Might as well bite the bullet and try to sell some songs to some record labels, if not score a deal for myself.

I have a load of 2005 goals, but those in a later post. Meanwhile, I hold onto God's promises, and am sustained by His love. It's all good when it's all God!